waste

I used to do this sort of thing all the time, to film and digital photos. My most popular images on flickr are often the more manipulated ones. I’m not sure how I feel about that. They’re obviously popular, but they’re not what I enjoy doing that much anymore. I thought I’d have a bash at one or two, for a change, and to see what the reaction is.

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

It’s not that I don’t like this type of photo. It’s just that my tastes have changed, I suppose. Also, I’m aware of how all this manipulation can hide a really, really bad photo. But then, I’m definitely of the opinion that it’s the finished image that matters, and not necessarily the stages you went through to get there. I’m not a pathetic purist who belittles anyone who works on their images in post-production. I’d have to slag off the greats if I was. But I question my own motives for this sort of work. I’m sure it’s the equivalent of a Porsche in inadequately-endowed men.

an extraordinarily boring road

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

sunday flickr favourites

I haven’t been keeping up with my contacts on flickr this week. So I’m having a marathon session searching back through them for today’s post. Of course, as always there’s so much that inspires me …

Untitled (by 'stpiduko')
© stpiduko

Grandma reads Rushdie (by meeralee)
© meeralee

Untitled (by Suse W.)
© Suse W.

Untitled (by - katarína -)
© - katarína -

Letting The Fricatives Linger Like Downtrodden Air (by DerrickT)
© DerrickT

My friend encouraged me to read Doris Lessing’s The Golden Notebook, and so I bought it yesterday.

He also encouraged me to start writing every day, in a notebook, with a real pen … on real paper. What a novel idea. Everything I write is on a screen with a keyboard. Who is to say which is the more ‘authentic’ writing experience? Both have their merits, both their drawbacks. I wrote this to him in an email:

I am going to start writing every day. I’m going to write with a pen in a notebook. Perhaps. Or I might write on the computer. I don’t know yet. There’s something, like with writing a hand-written letter, about writing your thoughts down on paper. You can’t delete them (put a line through what you’ve written and it’s still there, only obscured). Plus, the act of writing is more creative, I think. You’re making marks on a piece of paper that are yours – the actual marks mean something, as well as the concepts and meanings they convey. However, writing onto a computer offers a different sort of freedom. You can edit to a greater extent than you self-edit/self-censor when writing with a pen. Editing isn’t always a bad thing. It can force you to re-read your words, to consider them, and to act on them, even if only through the act of editing. It may, in fact, be a more contemplative process.

Of the two, I’m drawn to writing in a notebook. Perhaps because it’s more romantic, and it just _feels_ more authentic. However, writing this email to you, I keep pausing, contemplating what I’ve written and what I can write next. I think about the structure of what I’m writing, as well as the content. It’s a more complete process, whereas writing in a notebook is more raw, immediate and incomplete. Of course, there’s nothing to stop me trying out one method and changing if I don’t get on with it. Also, I could always write initially in a notebook, and then transcribe it to the computer at a later date. That, actually, might be quite a useful process to go through. On the other hand, perhaps it is better to write and never go back. The act itself being cathartic, rather than what you actually write.

I might do both. I bought some notebooks yesterday (satisfying my insane lust for stationery), but I also like typing. No reason I can’t do both. Both could be good. Options are good, limitations are bad, m’kay?

My biggest problem is that I can sit and think about doing something for hours, no, days, rather than getting down to it. Why do something that will take an hour to do when you can talk about doing it for a day first? (Which brings us to my problems with verbosity – why say in 1 sentence something that can be intimately described in 6 paragraphs?)

more holga shots

It doesn’t matter how many photos I take of trees I never stop enjoying them. These are in Hanley Park.

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

clearing and glistening

I’m on to the second roll now. I can’t remember whether this was taken in Hanley Park or Hanley Cemetery. Either way, it’s got trees and it’s got light, and that’s all you really need, to be honest.

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

This one was in Hanley Park …

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

I’ve got a bunch of things I want to write about, but no time at the moment. Photos will do for now.

family

I love my mum :)

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

from the four corners of stoke

My 7 rolls of 120 arrived back from Peak Imaging yesterday, and this is the first I’ve uploaded*.

Untitled (by catherine buca)
© catherine buca 2008

A couple of the rolls only have one or two scannable frames on them – a result of my dogged determination to keep taking toy camera photos indoors with no light and no flash. They should keep me busy for a while though.

*but not the first I scanned. That was a lovely portrait of my mum and her partner, but I doubt she’ll let me upload it.

sunday flickr favourites

I haven’t done anything much related to photo things this week. One thing or another kept cropping up. And now I have my new glasses everything looks weird, and I know my finished photos won’t look like what I see through them. They’ll settle down in time, I hope. And my keyboard looks bendy as I type this … good job I can touch type.

Some great photos from my flickr contacts this week. I am, quite frankly, embarrassed to know my pictures turn up in their contacts list …

Out Of Body Experience (by Psychedelic*Panda)
© Psychedelic*Panda

enough said | august 13. 2008 (by girl.x)
© girl.x

Turkish Coffee at the International Cafe (by Rev Dan Catt)
© Rev Dan Catt

windowsill (by Kim Denise)
© Kim Denise

deadleavesarepretty2 (by danske)
© danske

I’ve sent 7 rolls of 120 off to be processed, and should hopefully get them back early in the week. Fingers crossed I might actually have some new photos to put up soon.

In other news, I didn’t get funding from the AHRC for my MRes, which wasn’t, if I’m being honest, totally unexpected. I have a better shot at securing the fees bursary my university is making available, but won’t hear about that until some time in September. Who called it ‘the waiting game’? Aren’t games supposed to be fun?

and …

… already I’m fed up with my new template. Perhaps it is fed up with me.

I like simple things. I once had a blog that was a words blog that was nothing but words. No borders, no colours, no fancy headings, no columns here or rows of things there, just words. The simplicity was refreshing. It was all left-aligned too (oh, the joy of non-conformist left-aligned blogging). I’m craving that simplicity again. None of this ker-razy bold colours and blocky backgrounds malarky. None of this everything right down the middle stuff, no siree. Really, I’m sort of there already. I don’t have lines around my posts delineating one from the next. I don’t have a shaded links column, to help people understand they are looking at links instead of at blog posts. And yet, I do have my big fat blog title, and my big bold post titles, and that oh so predictable right-hand column of things you might want to click on. Blah blah blah …

When I had a mouse that could scroll horizontally (mighty mouse be damned, with your perpetually-sticking scroll ball) I thought horizontally-scrolling websites were the way forward (or sideways), instead of the vertical blah that has become de rigueur. But then my mouse broke (again) and I changed my mind.

If I go minimal again, what of my blah right-hand column? In a separate page? How to link to it? Perhaps 2 or 3 small links on the right. But would that be akin to giving in? How about something completely different? No titles? No dates? Horizontal? How about diagonal? Perpendicular rhomboid blogging? I’m sure I’d be the first.

sunday flickr favourites

This week I’m mostly inspired by bodies, and so, 5 from some amazing photographers from flickr …

Untitled (by blank space)
© blank space

Remembrance  (by Psychedelic*Panda)
© Psychedelic*Panda

f14 (by herr meyer)
© herr meyer

. (by sweet distin)
© sweet distin

Rob's Mattress (by Ryan Hancock)
© Ryan Hancock